Posts Tagged ‘Portrait of the Mother as a Young Woman’

Thrill to be Back

Sunday, September 5th, 2010

 

Our family holiday was a disaster – at least in terms of harmonious togetherness. And this was no fault of our teenage dsc08014daughter.

 

Yes, we did go to the Himalayas after all. Not to Ladakh as planned mind. Following the flash floods in the North of India, we rebooked to the Spiti Valley - a destination in the Southern Himalayas right on the border with Tibet.

 

We decided to take this ad hoc trip in the spirit of adventure. At first that attitude served us well. We flew to Delhi to connect to Manali. Only the plane to Manali never took off. So we journeyed by car and what was supposed to have taken an hour took two days. Moods were good. We slept in an amazing – albeit run down – Raj palace from the 16th century – and found the best Indian road side caf at the foot of the Himalayas. It featured toothless waiters and heaps of flies stuck to the windows but the most delicious curry in the world. My husband is now planning to celebrate his 50th there – no kidding. All welcome.

 

In order to get from Manali to Spiti you have to drive over a 4900m high pass. It was there that my head went into a spasm. I ended up on a drip and eventually had to be driven back the way I came. Husband and children went on the eight day trek under blue sky and up to 5000m. In the meantime I loitered in a Monsoon battered, foggy town, drowning in self-pity. I eventually got my act together, organized another (low altitude) hike for myself and off I went with a guide, a cook and a horseman for three days into wet Himalayan jungle. A tiny compensation for the Spiti Valley. I also missed my family.

 

By the end of this little private walk-about, though, I was fully acclimatized. Only, the holidays were over. In the plane I admired my daughter’s stunning photos of THEIR trek, biting my tongue and trying not to point out that I didn’t have such a nice time.

 

Back in London, Peirene’s latest earth shattering moment, the publication of No 3, had taken place. The book received some lovely reviews. Upon my return, I proudly sent them around. A radio producer emailed me. “Would have loved to do something about the book but off on a three months assignment to Asia in a couple of days.” The word Asia was my cue. I poured forth my love for trekking in that part of the world. We had a delightful exchange. It was only when he asked for a review copy of “Portrait of the Mother” and added “I see what I can go” that I realized that even problematic  holidays can be useful after the event. After all without my adventures at high altitude my nymph would be lacking an opportunity for another review.

 

I have however learnt one lesson – next trekking hols I will set off a week before my family, book myself into a nice hotel somewhere at about 3500m and acclimatize in comfort. Truth to tell, I’m quite keen on the idea.

 

I haven’t mentioned this little extension to my husband yet. I’ll give him a break for the moment. But I am sure it’ll be just fine.

A Girl’s Best Friend

Wednesday, March 31st, 2010

 

Have you ever been the President’s guest? Or do you know someone who has? I do. A Peirene author. Friedrich Christian Delius, author of webite-home-1281Peirene No 3, Portrait of the Mother as a Young Woman, was the President’s guest. Only yesterday. And Jamie, the translator, and I sat right next to him. What? You didn’t see us on the news? Well, pity because it was a spectacle definitely worth watching.

 

It all happened in Reading last night. Although Portrait of the Mother is not out until September, the President and the honoured members of the Assembly could no longer wait. They invited the author personally to present that stunning 120-page-long-single-sentence-that-reads-like-a-page-turning thriller. And they were truly stunned. So stunned that I sold – yes sold, not handed out as a freebie – 15 preview copies of the book. The President bought one too.

 

No, the President was not Barak Obama. But Frank Finlay. FF. Remember those initials, you will be tested on them in history lessons to come. The Assembly, however, was indeed a national one. Nothing less than the annual conference of the Association of German Studies in the UK and Ireland. Pretty impressive, hey?! In plain English: Peirene Title No 3 is now known through-out all the universities in this country. And if Lit Professors think Portrait is a remarkable novella  so should all of us I guess. Sorry to not be more humble about it. It’s just impossible.

 

So, how could it have all gone wrong? Well, the phone rang. Mine. The President’s guest was reading, the honoured assembly sat as quiet as a single mouse, and a phone started to ring in that beautiful old-style ringing tone. Instead of pretending it wasn’t mine, I frantically rummaged around in my handbag for everyone to see illuminated by the spot-light on the podium.  The ringing  eventually stopped of its own accord leaving me with the burning desire for a hole to open up in the floor.

 

No hole opened up. President and President’s guest were thrilled with he show. And so it was only after I woke up this morning that I had time to reflect upon the event. My daughter was the one who had rung. She was wondering where I had left the money for the piano teacher – the money which I had forgotten to take out of my purse that was lying in my bag right next to the mobile phone. And if there is one thing I have learned from managing Peirene it is that daughters show no respect for distinguished presidents and honoured guests. The piano teacher still needs to get paid. And the phone is there to ring the mother if she forgets to leave the money.

Heidegger’s Socks

Friday, January 8th, 2010

 

Schools are closed, buses aren’t running, the country will soon be out of gas and grit.  Everything has grind to a holt. webite-home-080

Except for Peirene and I. Back from the Christmas break bang on time Monday morning 9am. Refreshed, rejuvenated, full of beans for 2010. Our launch year! Peirene Title No 1 “Beside the Sea” will be published on 4th of February, the Catalan modern classic “Stone in a Landslide” comes in April, followed by the Germanic 120-page-long sentence that reads like a thriller “Portrait of the Mother as a Young Woman” in June. I am worried (“Will they sell?”), I am excited (“Wow, they will actually come out”) and I can’t wait (“Will I earn a penny or two – or not?”).

 

The vibes are good, not only up here in the North but also down South. I received a phone call on Tuesday from Mark, the owner of Kew Bookshop. My sales rep had given him Beside the Sea before Christmas. He read it and told me how impressed he was, with the novel (he compared it to Cormac McCarthy’s “The Road”), the cover, the personal statement at the beginning of the book, the whole Peirene idea. His compliments warmed my heart and so no surprise, I’m not going to fuss about the temperature outside.

 

Yep, of course I came back with a couple of beautiful lovely New Year’s resolutions. One actually. But it is – will be – live changing. Over the Christmas break I looked long and deep into my darling little nymph’s eyes. I love you dearly, I told her, I can’t live without you but… you are my job and not my life. Ordnung muss sein. I was tough with her but fair. I told her that I will care and nurture her during the day but at night she must sleep. However much she screams I will no longer return after bedtime. Because – after all – there is more to my life.

Heidegger for example. I’ve been neglecting him hugely, he stood out in the cold for months. But that’s all changed now. I’ve taken him back into the warmth, dusted the snow off his covers and dried his socks.

Happy New Year!

Give it all up!

Friday, July 24th, 2009

 

i-quit1 This Monday I decided to give it all up. Let’s face it - it was a silly idea from the start, this setting-up-a-publishing-house idea. There are too many threads to hold in my head at one and the same time. I woke up at four o’clock in the morning, wide awake, with a full list of people in my head who just hadn’t answered my e-mails. Why? Just why didn’t these people answer my e-mails? How did I sign the e-mails? Best wishes? No, I don’t think I put best wishes. Oh God, they must think I am unfriendly. On the other hand, perhaps my e-mails never reached them. That’s it, I thought. There is a problem with my system. Yes! Clearly there was a problem with MY SYSTEM. By the time it got to seven o’clock I knew what to do.

“I will give it up,” I said to my husband as soon as the alarm bell rang. He didn’t immediately reply.

“Did you hear what I said?”

“What will you give up?,” he asked sleepily. He obviously hadn’t followed the plot for the last three hours.

“Peirene, of course, I just cannot do it. I have got myself into something here which is far beyond me. I made a huge mistake.”

“And the books you’ve acquired for translation?”

“I’ll give them back to the original publishers.”

“I don’t think you should make any decision after a sleepless night,” he replied. That was a mistake. He shouldn’t have given me such common sense nonsense – not that early in the morning. The monologue he got from me in reply – well, he really brought it onto himself, didn’t he?, about how he doesn’t understand, he doesn’t know what I am talking about, he hasn’t got a clue. It’s too much responsibility, too many decisions, I am continuously out of my depth, I am not swimming, I am drowning.

That was Monday. I had it all sorted back then. The only issue was that I hadn’t set a date when I would give it all up. Therefore I felt somehow obliged to return to my desk until I had time to set a date. And also just in case my decision about giving-it-all-up wasn’t that sound in the first place.

And then something very nice happened. I received an e-mail from a literary festival organizer with whom I had briefly been in contact about “Portrait of the Mother as a Young Woman,” the German novel that Peirene will publish next year. “Just been reading your blog,” she wrote. “It’s a lot of fun and made me want to meet up.” My heart made a little leap. Not only did someone reply to my email, but also wanted to meet me. Peirene was back on track. It didn’t take much, just one little kind note.

I emailed my husband the wonderful news. “I have decided to continue with Peirene. x”

“I never had any doubts! xxx,” he emailed back.

So, he never truely deeply listened to the tormented out-pour of my soul, did he?!